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it is a funny thing to want love. if you go and try to run after it,… - Wind Spirits

Jan. 30th, 2004 02:41 am

it is a funny thing to want love.
if you go and try to run after it, the more you get closer to it the farther it flies away from you.
if you just sit there and decide to wait for it to happen, it'll just hover near you, teasing you, but not go near you.
why is it such a big thing, this thing called love?
and mind you, i've been told that there are many forms of love. as if plain love wasn't enough already to keep you on your toes. heh...
is love real? i mean is it really?
or do we just associate it with something that gives our egos a boost?
or as a salve to soothe the itch?
or to fill a need, something psychological or spiritual perhaps?
i look around, even in the most perfect of relationships as one might deem them,
i see the pain that needs to be soothed, the anger to be calmed, and mostly fear...
fear of being alone...
left out...
untouched...
unwanted...
this need for reassurance that another living soul wants them, needs them...
but always.. always never enough.
there's never enough for anyone... there's never enough of somebody for anyone...

honestly, i don't know where i'm going with this. hmph.. sometimes i amuse myself.

but let me just imagine that i know what i'm talking about.
and to carry on with what i started here, let's say i wanted to say this:
that even with this realization, this "epiphany" if i may so eloquently add,
i also know that i am a part of this machination, this beast.
and at best i may fall into any one of the definitions that i have stated above. but, with what i'm privy too, i also know that i am much more than this. i have to be, but how do you do this? i don't exactly know how.
all i know is i have to love less of love's shadow that most of us make it stand for but more of the substance that it should have been made of....

or maybe am just sleepy...

g'nyt luvs!
cheers!

Current Mood: sillyamused, pensive, groggy
Current Music: dream a little dream of me...

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From:bench
Date:January 29th, 2004 05:16 pm (UTC)
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Hi! Ngano wala naman ka magtext? Kumusta na ka?
From:nigatsukodomo
Date:January 31st, 2004 09:05 am (UTC)

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ok naman. just been busy. s'all. :0 how've you been?
From:bench
Date:January 31st, 2004 11:31 pm (UTC)

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i'm okay. a lot of things happened na. read na lang my posts. everything is there anyway. :)
From:siouxante_neuf
Date:November 8th, 2005 01:47 pm (UTC)
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Hi john!

can i add you?
From:siouxante_neuf
Date:November 8th, 2005 02:31 pm (UTC)
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They that sow in tears shall reap in joy.